:: PC WaCkY DaY ::

Arrgghh !! i dunno for how many times my laptop keep restarting.. again n again... Is d laptop crazy or is it just me ?? ok.. cool down mas.. perhaps i should do sumthing on it.. Let see...

Pheww.... when i kick out d spyware software out of my hard disk.. itz getting better.. but for now la.. Please computer!!! don't make me hate u for d rest of d day....n Now..more n more burden r coming as usual, i hav my ticket back...

Uwaaaaa.. 'Never Ending Story' job ... u r totally rite 'winnie'.... My life hav just begun...

<^> DaNdELiON <^>

Seeds coming into light
Where soft puffs of wind
Can scatter them to the compass.
The quickening life they carry
below their belts
Sometimes landing to fruition
And the hope of another spring;
Sometimes becoming the fuel
for another fire.

I pick this stuff from internet.. wondering wat is dandelion means to me... itz weird to me why i choose this kind of flower to be my blog theme.. Mayb bcoz i luv to see when d seed flew to the air.. itz tenderly soft, pure white n ...adorable..The flower is actually in yellow color but somehow d flower itself change themselves to produce seeds n these seeds r waiting for the wind to take them away.. hahaha.. am i look like 'jiwang' ? No lar.. i luv to see d beauty nature as well as hear the sound of nature... Hopefully one day.. i want to hold n touch this dandelion feeling, but as far as i know, this flower only can be seen in a west country, but not in here... uhuhu.. nevermind laa.. mayb one day... one lucky day.. hahaha..

:: Today is a real WORKDAY ::

I arrived my office at 8.07am, yesterday 8.05am.. a day than b4 8.03am... Huaa.. tommorrow 8.09am... hehe.. i'm just guessing.. At my desk, a piece of paper was placed on my desk.. Erkk! itz my ticket.. a previous one.. I read it.. Hmm.. i never thought they replied my piece of work so fast... Ooh.. feel no mood to face the program that time.. but i hav no choice.. do i? Well.. i study again d coding while modify a bit here.. a bit there.. Until lunch.. no conclusion was made.. only rubbish of output..Ok.. at 12.30, i make myself rilex.. but not very long.. only 20 mins..hehe.. i think so..i keep thinking to get d solution quickly.. So i continue back my work.. Tap Tap Tap.. my hands pressing the keyboard... hehe... not to the work.. a little bit of chatting also while waiting for my program to debug.. i keep asking lee on how to manage the coding.. then i ask my Supervisor.. then kacau shahnon, my 3 buddies... n whoever in d office that i want to kacau.. hahaha.. Finally.. around 6.. i've got my job done.. i hope no requirements r added again to this coding.. penat tau! dah ler panjang giler coding.. then.. added with my messy code.. bertambah -tambahla biul d buatnya... Oh well.. at least i 've finished my job with happy face.. hehe.. Mayb 'berkat' from my fasting...Talking about my fasting today, i ate chocholate bun n a cup of coffee as my buka puasa treat b4 i hav my dinner at home.. Not a very tired day.. mayb bcoz i'm concetrated to work which make me almost forgot.. i was fasting...

Anyway, yesterday he called me.. around midnite time.. he told me his home got gegaran which effected from earth quake at Sumatera land.. When i heard it came from Sumatera.. i feel teribbly sympathy to the earth quake victims... even to their families.. how r they goin to survive without their loves one.. Al-fatihah to dead victims..

:: FRenS 4eVeR ::

Itz already 12pm, Friday nite... i hear Al-fatihah wordz from my mum's voice.. n in my head questioning... "is d 'thing- human’s enemies' can hear wat every single words my mum trying to say to GOD“.. hm… I guess no answer for that.. only GOD knows it.. I know my mum, dad gives me a spiritual support to always remember me… don’t ever..ever.. give up urself.. GOD is always there for u..if u know who u r belonging to… Thatz true..I want to keep it in my head wat r my parents always tolds me..

B4 I close my eyes to sleep.. I lay down n contemplating about d things that faizah n me.. together shared our thought about d future life.. I met her at Kedai Mamak Syed around 9pm.. So sad… she will leaving me in d end of d month bcoz she will moves out to new house in Cheras.. B4 this, she lives just nearby my house… n we always go out together.. jogging together.. play bowling together.. even go holiday together.. she’s one of my best fren n trusted fren.. we know each other since form 4.. although we’re in a different school.. how I met her? At Class Tuisyen.. n she’s d one who approach me 1st as every student there was non-malay n brilliant students (but not me!).. n she looks me like a naive person.. hahaha… thatz y she braved to ask me… Hmm.. wat a sweet memory I hav with her…..

Now.. time has change us to become a mature person.. I hav my own job.. she has her own job life.. One thing for sure… She is not a same job field with me n that will make us more distant.

:: HeRe CoMeS FRiDaY ::

Uhuhu.... i just wrote my blog for today.. but suddenly it disappear out of sumwhere... Well i have to write it again.. but not as originality as 'previous version'. Oh well itz ok.. it will not stop me to write again.. okie dokie today is FRIDAY.... In Islam, Friday is one of d 'unique day' given by GOD.. itz a 'give' for a muslims to show their 'appreciation' towards GOD...but not only focus on friday.. i mean FRIDAY is a little bit different from d other days.. but how d human appreciate d GOD's belongings? d answer is already there.. everyone knows it... (i put a question mark for this for me to realize it myself..)

Okess..... just now i ate d tremendous food.. (senior staff belanje me) but i control myself not to eat much.. haha.. not bcoz i'm diet.. itz just that i'm not eating too much infront of many people..not my style.. ceewah !!! hee..i dont want them to know my eating habit.. except to my blog reader... hahaha... shhh!! Well i hav a runny nose.. Itz possible for me to eat without a 'real taste of food'.. but anywhere d food already in my stomach.. waiting to be processed.. hahaha...

Above picture--- Jang Na Ra.. wat a cute creature.. My Love Patzzi n The Successful Story of A Bright Girl are my fav drama series of her appearance.. Heee..actually this is my 1st trial i post my picture on this blog.. i tried n explore it with zura just now n yup!! there shows my 'picture'.. not me lar.. my fav korean actress/singer.. Hmm.. i luv her song too.. check it out!

Sweet Dream(English translate):
It's gonna be another day with the sunshine
the suns rays shine brightly outside of my window,
when my half-opened eyes are finally opened
i invision your face and it welcomes me...
your lips slightly brush against my cheeks, as you whisper that you love me
inside my head is the morning coffee, am i dreaming?

It's gonna be another day with the sunshine
the suns rays shine brightly outside of my window,
when my half-opened eyes are finally opened
i invision your face and it welcomes me...

When we can get together I feel paradise
there's nothing that can make me happier than this,
yes, that has to be right
because right now you are by my side

my name, because it was so common, even i didn't like it
but when you call me, i only think of it prettily

It's gonna be another day with the sunshine
you make me feel beautiful, will you please hold me
will you tell me that you love me...
When we can get together I feel paradise
because finally, i feel like the main character in the movies,
receiving love
i was reborn in your heart

right this moment, there can't be anyone happier than me
please don't make it break, don't break it, don't tell me i'm dreaming...

It's gonna be another day with the sunshine
the suns rays shine brightly outside of my window,
when my half-opened eyes are finally opened
i invision your face and it welcomes me...

When we can get together I feel paradise
there's nothing that can make me happier than this,
yes, that has to be right
because right now you are by my side

It's gonna be another day with the sunshine
you make me feel beautiful, will you please hold me
will you tell me that you love me...

When we can get together I feel paradise
because finally, i feel like the main character in the movies,
receiving love
i was reborn in your heart

:: Calling Mon..Tues..Wed..Thurs ::

As i am writing this blog, i'm waiting for my pogram to be executed, so long...hehe.. still hav time to 'blog' myself, Ok let me think wat to write on, hmm... i left my blog on Monday till Wednesday, Then i should summarize my week day job lorr.. Well this is my first real job task.. Quite difficult but itz 'fun'.. Hahaha... Don't think itz enjoyable... itz challenging .. but i think i'm still not in the level called 'steady level'... Ok let me pulled out my memory back to d friday where i've got my ticket spec. In d first day my name was called by Uncle mel, nothing can't stop my quick heart beat. Oh oooh.. i'm d 'chosen one'.. am i? still can't believed.. Then i just realized i'd already entered d conference room.. Then, about half an hour, i was given the coding and hav to be prepared to get rumble with the bunch of coding, then, using my limit skills, i hav to go on..slowly..slowly until my eyes become tired for that day... huh! that was only for study d coding, not yet touch up d program itself... In the end of day, nothing was input to my head.. only blank... huh! I calmed myself.. This is my first time doing sumthing different, i hav to get used it later, and Fortunately.......... i was given d green light by supervisor to go back on that day.. he said, dont worry too much, still have times, not much modification to do.. i hope so... Then... as i planned for d weekend, i enjoyed my weekend peacefully.. i think so.. until d manic monday come to 'rescue' my holiday...i hate monday!! y monday?? uwaaaa....d first day of d job week.. huh! Monday still haven't give a clue to understand d coding...then, d supervisor come to me, explain again.. i'm not sure for how many times..heheh...i think he got dull when i'm asking d same question....well thanx to him, he gives a lot of guides on how to manage myself with d coding..

Anyway, i'm waiting for Tuesday to give me a solution as Monday gave me 20% of best... Oh ya.. i also hav meeting with xpert person on Monday.. then i used this opportunity to ask about my program... hehe... Ok.. Next day was Tuesday, things getting better as i got to manage d solution bit by bit n understand d program logic(only partial) ... Until... i lost in d space.. hehe... i got confused with d requirement needed.. i forgot i'm doing an account programming.. oh no! i need to define d balance forward... slowly mas.. i can do it! i can do it! gambatte! n Tuesday brought me a good news to continue calling Wednesday to help me.. Yess !! Finally... i got d solution step by step... Along d way to finish it, i think i won't be able to finish it without helped from xpert abapers, frens n supervisor... ceee wahh.. like speech! Dub Dab Dub.. d due date was closer than i thought... Watever happen, i hav to finish my things on Thursday... must do it!!

ok.. Itz Wednesday turn.. at 6.30 pm... my balance forward appear correctly from d screen laptop.. n walaa.... how happy i was... n shahnon was there also.. sharing my happy.. hee..she teman me until 7 pm..Itz already 8pm when i msg to him, telling him that i want him to come over here... hehe.. celebrate? not exactly.. i need him to accompany me bcoz i knew that nite, no one at home.. so i just lepak with him at Amcorp Mall...don't want to think about coding anymore... By Thursday, that is today... i'm free!!!! yess!! by the time i ending my blog.. i already submit my program to supervisor... but still, i need to wait d response from the other side to approve it... hopefully everythings ok... as expected...

.:: Pulangkan - versi PTPTN ::.

(Ex-Student) Sedikit bunga yang menggoda
Sekadar dipandang usah dibayar
Kau pasti tak percaya
Duitku bukan untukmu sayang

(Pegawai PTPTN) Tiada kusangka kau sungguh kejam
Kau peram hutang yang kau pinjam
Namun takkan bahgia kehidupanmu
Bila engkau berkonvo kau milikku
Pulangkan hutang-hutangku

(Ex-Student)Oh hentikanlah menghantuiku
(Pegawai PTPTN) Oh pulangkan oh pulangkanlah padaku
(Ex-Student) Kupulangkan semua hutangku
-(Pegawai PTPTN)Yang dikau peram tanpa relaku
(Ex-Student)Bebaskanlah maafkan daku oh kasih

(Pegawai PTPTN) Tiada kemaafan di sini
Kau hutang tanpa bayar sesen lagi
Akan kujejakimu ke mana jua hingga akhir masa...

masz_2ra comment..
uikss!! d lyric means very deep to me.. Well i know i'm d one who has been blacklisted.. but itz actually a mistake, i thought i 'm going to pay it start by next year but bcoz of 'the other side' does not received any acknowledgement letter from me (which i already send them my letter to postpone my payment- D reason y i postponed is bcoz that time i was in a degree.. ), i hav to accept their rules... Oh! mayb itz my fault..

the 'touching' wordz from this lyric -- Akan kujejakimu ke mana jua hingga akhir masa... Erk! i dont want to be a trouble maker here to get this thing become court case.. i'd already get d 1st warning letter.. But i admit that the PTPTN system is not efficient enuff in delivering their services.. Itz not only me who said it like that, i heard also from newspaper or even TV.. they critic d way PTPTN gives d loan to student..but now i think they r trying to improve it, hope so... I won't say much about PTPTN services.. but d important thing is whatever we borrow, dont forget to return it back.. itz not our's property.. Wat i can see todayz student r not like 10 yearz ago student... once they got d money which actually their loan, emm i can say handphone is d first thing they buy n a 'must-stuff' to hav.. itz true.. including me i guess.. hahaha... but that time i was in a desperate situation, my family alwayz wanted to know where i was when i'm with frens.. even i was in a group project work.. ohh. that was a difficult time for me.. ok back to d topic.. not all d students like that. i think a small number of students use this opportunity to invest their loans for d future.. wow.. they got profit from it.. n d loan interest? huh... juzt snap one's fingers to pay it !! that kind of student alwayz looking forward for future investmant.. but of coz that student mayb comes from rich people lorr.. okla i think i'm done with my scretch now.. i hate to make a long essay.. hehe.. thatz y i stop.. okess..

:: StoP DreaMing ::

Yess!! finally, comes to d end of weekday.. how i feel? eii dont expect me to bcome energetic.. bcoz itz still early.. 10 am... so cold... sleepy... remind me to my comfortable bed... covered myself with d warm blanket... perhh !! syokk !! hehehe....

Deyy... jgn brmimpi !! ur dreamz is over...Suddenly uncle mel called me to meet him at d conference room....it happened when i'm in the middle of 'blogging' myself ....uhuhu i 've got the 'ticket' (project) already !! Gulp !! don't be afraid mas....huh! try to calm myself.. i think when i get d ticket (can be anytime from now), i'll hav to crawl back into my programming skills again ... uhuhu.. i heard that program is a tricky n mayb involves a major convertion .. get ready mas !! itz ur day !! hahaha... i laughed at myself... so terukk !!

.:: The Word ::.

I found sumthin' nice from Tokeikedai... NiCe OnE !!

* * * T H E W O R D * * *

The Most Selfish One-Letter Word
"I"
Avoid It
(Surah Al Kahf 18:34)

The Most Satisfying Two-Letter Word
"WE"
Use It
(Surah Al An'am 6:71-72)

The Most Poisonous Three-Letter Word
"EGO"
Kill It
Surah Al Qasas 28:78

The Most Used Four-Letter Word
"LOVE"
Value It
(Surah Al Rum 30:21)

The Most Pleasing Five Letter Word
"SMILE"
Keep It
(Surah Al Najm 53:43)

The Fastest Spreading Six-Letter Word
"RUMOUR"
Ignore It
(Surah Al Hujurat 49:12)

The Hardest Working Seven Letter Word
"SUCCESS"
Achieve It
(Surah Al Nur 24:37-38)

The Most Enviable Eight-Letter Word
"JEALOUSY"
Distance It
(Surah Yusuf 12:8-9)

The Most Powerful Nine-Letter Word
"KNOWLEDGE"
Acquire It(of Allah & the Holy Qu'ran)
Surah Ya Sin 36:2 Surah Yusuf 12:2

The Most Essential Ten-Letter Word
"CONFIDENCE"
Trust It(Trust in Allah's Guidance)
Surah Yunus 10: 9Surah Al Tawbah 9:51

:: :: :: :: ::T H E W O R D:: :: :: :: ::

:: q(^_^)p "Bring Me to Life" ::

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t
wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me
from
the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake
up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve
become
now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe
into me and make me real
bring me to life

La~ La~ La~ I can feel the song into my head now.... feel like wanna dance... ehehe.... I dunno y suddenly that song 'pop up' in my head... hmmm bcoz i'm now in that situation huh! Bring me to life~~ Ya lor.. itz feel
like i'm in invisible to this company since last 3 weeks.. thatz y i'm hoping this company can bring me up to life~~... hahaha... but.. when i think back, bukan slalu dpt 'huhahuha' camni... orait perr.. Erkk mampus le aku kalo big boss baca blog aku.... shhh.. diam...control mas!ade bos bos tgh pandang tuh ...

Emm ckp pasal life kan, i think i hav a topic to scretch on d computer.. teringat balik when i was 6 years old.. that time.. hmm... cute, comel.. hahaha puji diri sendiri la plak! tak malu wehh !! a quiet gal, n not very friendly... but... jeng jeng.. the first fren i knew was a cute malay boy...ok i knew i was very shy to ask for help in d class, then he came to help me... err sorry i forgot his name.. so lousy of me...hehe....but when we r in standard 5 ... i dunno him anymore as i knew him b4.. he joined with a notty group.. n that time we r already in a different class...hmm... where is he now...? i wonder...Ok thats it about him... N the things that i won't forget when i was in primary school.. i was very easy to be bullied by boyz.. i dunno y... bcoz i'm so quiet? or bcoz i'm cute?.. hahaha... no lar!! cannot be

Aiyakkk !!! i'm out of my topic huh!! hee.. i should talk about my life i'm struggling now.. not my previous "life". n i think i've made a longer journal than others.. Oopppssy... ok lar for now.. Today task is to complete my exercise 8.. u can do it mas!! yup.. gambatte!!! chaiyoo chaiyoo... n hee.. dont forget to bring up ur life today...!!!

:: Still Hav 2 Days to Go on...::

Huaarghhhh..... very sleepy... hungry... boring... i look at d time.. 7 hours left... such a long day... Yesterday, i slept at 1 am... Huh ! wat a boring movie i watched last nite. Well i still accept that movie, but not bcoz i luv the way d movie presented, n not bcoz of the hero/heroin is charming or sumthing attract me... err.. aaa....bcoz this movie itz a malay movie.., then i forgive laa... hehe... aper plak org kater nanti kan, kutuk bangsa sendiri.. heee.... takpela bagi can yer ? hahahaha.... but funniest thing in that movie is.. father of the hero himself... hee.. jahatnya la aku! nak tau kan.... they r suppose a mixed family (d mother is chinese, father is europian guy) the scene that make me laughed is when d father scolded her son not to meet his lover, d father throw his malay voice (sumtimes) with a weird sounds.. hahahaha.. i dunno how to describe, that father should show a fierce face but he didn't.. d suitable description for it...is a funny malay sound with not gud mimic face .. huhuhu... erkk.. kutuk lebih2 lak... kalo ikutkan byk aku nak komen.. blom masuk part2 sedey lagi.... tp takpela. aku tak sampai ati lak nak kutuk lagi.. Anyway, i've got free ticket for that premiere movie i watched.. ? hee...then okla for me... ok shut my mouth to continue critic that movie.. !! Now.. jeng jeng... its breakfast time... i wanna drink coffee... i dunno y suddenly i get used with coffee.. b4 this, if i drink coffee, i get dizzy... but now.. i started to make it as a habit.. oh no!! no milo anymore huh! mm... 1 hour left to go lunch.. takpela.... tahan mas! coffee is not gud 4 ur health k... hee.. pujukkan ati gak... Okla.. i need to do ABAP exercise on creating database.. otherwise i'll lose my ABAP memory... n the RAM become so slower now....hahaha.. ok.. catcha u later ... chowww...

:: Warisan Keluarga ::

Yesterday, i listened to my mum's stories about our background family (especially my mum side), it is important that we know who is ur grand grand grand mother/father, mayb they could be from d famous history people... Hahaha, thatz not what i mean... I look it as another view, what if ur grand grand ma/pa hides a biggest secret n suddenly effecting ur life, not only u, mayb to ur son/daughter... u never know wat are actually happened in the past decades.. Wat if ur grand3x ma/pa left u a 'misterious treasure' that u dont want to hav... wat kind of 'misterious treasure'? ok.. not a million dollars or gold treasure.. not a materialistic things, but a 'living thing'.. okla camne aku nk translate ke english ek? hehe.... if dlm malay... namanya 'Saka'.. biasenya d turunkan dari nenek moyang dulu... Wat i know, it keep 'haunting' u sampaila to ur cucu cicit... scary huh! Hopefully, i'm not d one who affected by this warisan.... Nauzubillah... okess!! thatz all my scretch 4 2day!!

:: PeACe __\/ ::

well.. serious time !! dont play2 haa...

hmm... i can feel, out there seems dark, i can hear d thunder sound coming from outside, hopefully rain / thunder will stop b4 5.30pm... Well as usual, i'm acting in d office.. typing a blog..in d same time doing SAP exercise on CALL TRANSACTION and BDC INSERT... uhuhuu.... 11/2 hour more to go.... out from this office prisoner.. In the mean time, Uncle Mel just passed by me and told me that i will be assigned to a new project / ticket... erk !! .... haiyooo.... so scary lorr~~ but at least i hav sumthing to do instead of chatting, games, or err... blogging ? In the office here now, everyone do their own job, sum chats, sum already attached to d project n sum just wondering wat will happen to them tommorow, still waiting for the answer from Uncle Mel... hmm sounds from team leader gives guidance to her grup.. hehe.. they just infront of me... while next to me, he already has work to concetrate, he wif his job life... mine wif my boring day... suddenly from a quite office became like pasar.. hehe.. but not like a real pasar maa... 'Lovers in Paris', i must get it !! i heard that korean/japan drama was nice.. hmm stuff thing to look forward... i look at my watch... 15 mins to go back... when i step out from the door office, i am free!!! hehe... free until 8.30am tomorrow... wakaka... so whoever read my blog, i think u can understand what kind of life i'm living in... ok for now... to be continued...

:: po..po..polong ??? ::

'tek.. tek.. tek..' bunyi kat atas siling... Erk !!.. ko main2 atas siling yer...? ish ish aper la malang nasib aku.. aku rase cam aku ni tetamu la plak kat bilik sendiri.. sampaikan aku ajak mak aku escort tido bilik sendiri.. hee.. x malu !!! itz really annoyed me since i came back from my home town (rembau). uhuhuhu.... now i'm not alone in my room anymore..oohhh tidakkk !!!!

:.yey yey mc :.

Adehh.. sakit perut ku!! tgh syok surfing... tetiba perut ku menjerit 'Nak gi toilet!!! cepat !!!' Ha.. aku pe lg... terus blah gi toilet dgn lajunya.. tp hehe.. control ayu ler.. kaber beb ! kuar, masuk, kuar, masuk toliet, tu je la keje aku setiap 1 jam.. x leh jd ni, aku pun pi la tempat fiza.. 'Eh perut sakit la.. teman aku gi klinik leh'.. Jeng jeng dalam sekelip mata jek, aku pun dah sampai umah... hee. MC.. lega rasenya...

Ari ni lak si dia ajak aku gi tgk anugerah aper ntah.. aku pun x brape tau.. tp memandangkan perut aku ni merajuk lak, terpaksa le aku lupakan hasrat aku nk gi.. ish ish sedeyyy.. ape bley wat...